if you only knew (Explicit) - Alexander Stewart/Roland Spreckley/Adam Yaron
Composed by：Alexander Stewart/Roland Spreckley/Adam Yaron
Produced by：Adam Yaron
I've been tryin' so hard to survive
我艰难捱日
Sometimes I think that I wanna die
有时我想要死去
I feel so ******* guilty 'cause God I'm so lucky to live my life
但我深感罪孽 因为我得此幸运才能蒙获上帝恩赐性命
So I keep all the pain to myself
所以我吞下所有悲痛
Losin' faith but nobody can tell
我已失去信念 但无人可以诉说
Mom I don't want you worried 'cause that would just hurt me
妈妈 我不想叫你担忧 如此我只会为你心伤
So I pretend I'm fine
所以我假装我一切无恙
If you only knew
如果你知道
What my mind is tellin' me I should do
我脑海中的声音怂恿我去做的事
That I'm drunk and all alone in my room here tonight
今夜我酩酊大醉 独自待在房间里
I'm too sad to cry it's true oh
我悲切得无法哭泣 全都是真的
If you only knew
如果你能知道
All the **** my brain is puttin' me through
我的大脑让我痛苦不已
You'd come runnin' over straight to my room here tonight
今夜你会径直来到我的房间
I'm sorry but I need you oh
我很抱歉 但我真的需要你
If you only knew
如果你知道
I wish I was somebody else
我希望我是别人而非我自己
I'm constantly overwhelmed
悲伤淹没了我
Now I'm falling again gettin' drunk with some friends
现在我又一次和朋友们醉倒
It's a silent cry for help
我在无声喊叫 期望你能救救我
I wanna get better I want you to know
我想要变得更好 我想要你知道
That I can't do this on my own
我自己一个人无法做到
If you only knew
如果你知道
What my mind is tellin' me I should do
我脑海中的声音怂恿我去做的事
That I'm drunk and all alone in my room here tonight
今夜我酩酊大醉 独自待在房间里
I'm too sad to cry it's true oh
我悲切得无法哭泣 这是真的
If you only knew
如果你知道
All the **** my brain is puttin' me through
我的大脑让我痛苦不已
You'd come runnin' over straight to my room here tonight
今夜你会径直来到我的房间
I'm sorry but I need you oh
我很抱歉 但我真的需要你
Take me out of this hell
带我走出这个地狱
Oh somebody help
来救救我
Take me out of this hell
带我走出这个地狱
Oh I'm not myself
我已迷失自我
I wanna tell you
我想要告诉你
What my mind is tellin' me I should do
我脑海中的声音怂恿我去做的事
That I'm drunk and all alone in my room here tonight
今夜我酩酊大醉 独自待在房间里
I'm too sad to cry but I want to
我悲切得无法哭泣 但是我想你知道
Oh if you only knew
如果你能知道