Mother I Sober (feat. Beth Gibbons of Portishead) (Clean) - Kendrick Lamar (肯德里克·拉马尔)/Beth Gibbons
Lyrics by：Beth Gibbons/Kendrick Lamar/J. Pounds/M. Spears/Daniel Tannenbaum/Sam Dew/Stephen Lee Bruner
Composed by：Beth Gibbons/Kendrick Lamar/J. Pounds/M. Spears/Daniel Tannenbaum/Sam Dew/Stephen Lee Bruner
Kendrick Lamar：
I'm sensitive I feel everything I feel everybody
我个性敏感 感受着一切 理解每个人的心情
One man standin' on two words heal everybody
一个人依赖于两个词 治愈世间众人
Transformation then reciprocation karma must return
涅槃重生 将善意传递出去 因果报应 循环往复
Heal myself secrets that I hide buried in these words
治愈自己 将我隐瞒的秘密埋藏在歌词之中
Death threats ego must die but I let it purge
遭受死亡威胁 自我注定消亡 但我让其得到净化
Pacify broken pieces of me it was all a blur
让自己平静下来 我支离破碎的样子变得模糊不清
Mother cried put they hands on her it was family ties
妈妈失声痛哭 他们对她动手动脚 这就是家庭纽带
I heard it all I should've grabbed a gun but I was only five
我听到了一切 我早该拿着枪倾泻火力 但那时我只有五岁
I still feel it weighin' on my heart my first tough decision
我的心情依然感觉沉重不已 这是我第一次做出艰难的决定
In the shadows clingin' to my soul as my only critic
当我对自己吹毛求疵时 这一切萦绕在我灵魂的阴暗角落里
Where's my faith
我的信仰去了哪里
Told you I was Christian but just not today
我告诉过你 我是个基督徒 但今天我要破戒
I transformed prayin' to the trees God is taken shape
我已经华丽蜕变 对着树木祈祷 上帝已经幻化成形
My mother's mother followed me for years in her afterlife
在我妈妈的母亲去世以后 多年来她跟随着我
Starin' at me on back of some buses I wake up at night
在公共汽车后面 我感觉她凝视着我 我在深夜时分突然惊醒
Loved her dearly traded in my tears for a Range Rover
我深爱着她 用我的眼泪换来一辆路虎揽胜
Transformation you ain't felt grief 'til you felt it sober
涅槃重生 你无法感觉到悲伤 直到你恢复清醒
Beth Gibbons：
I wish I was somebody
多么希望我可以变成别人
Anybody but myself
只要不是我自己就好
Ooh I wish I was somebody
多么希望我可以变成别人
Anybody but myself
只要不是我自己就好
Kendrick Lamar：
I remember lookin' in the mirror knowin' I was gifted
我还记得我凝望着镜子里的自己 我知道我天资聪颖
Only child me for seven years everything for Christmas
七年来我都是家里唯一的孩子 为圣诞节做好充分的准备
Family ties they accused my cousin "Did he touch you Kendrick"
家庭纽带让我的表哥遭到指责 Kendrick 他是否对你动手了
Never lied but no one believed me when I said "He didn't"
我从未说谎 当我说没有时 却没有人相信
Frozen moments still holdin' on it hard to trust myself
气氛焦灼的瞬间依然萦绕我的脑海里 我连自己都难以相信
I started rhymin' copin' mechanisms to lift up myself
我开始写歌 我选择这样的应对机制让自己振作起来
Talked to my lawyer told me not to be so hard on myself
跟我的律师促膝长谈 他劝我不要对自己这么严苛
He has an aura I hope to achieve if I find some help
他散发着迷人的气场 如果我寻求帮助 我希望我能如愿以偿
Congratulations made it to be famous still I feel uneasy
恭喜你 出人头地 可我依然感觉惴惴不安
Water watchin' live my life in nature only thing relieves me
注视着水面 享受自然中的生活 只有这样能让我放松心情
Spirit guide whisper in my ear tell me that she sees me
灵魂指引在我耳畔低语 告诉我她看到我的身影
"Did he touch you" I said "No" again still they didn't believe me
他是否对你动手了 我再次矢口否认 可他们还是不相信我
Mother's brother said he got revenge for my mother's face
妈妈的兄弟说他会报仇 只要能维护妈妈的颜面
Black and blue the image of my queen that I can't erase
我的女王浑身淤青 伤痕累累 我无法忘记她的那副模样
'Til this day can't look her in the eyes pain is takin' over
直到今天 我无法凝视她的双眼 痛苦将一切占据
Blame myself you never felt guilt 'til you felt it sober
埋怨自己 你不会感到愧疚 直到你恢复清醒
Beth Gibbons：
I wish I was somebody
多么希望我可以变成别人
Anybody but myself
只要不是我自己就好
Ooh I wish I was somebody
多么希望我可以变成别人
Anybody but myself
只要不是我自己就好
Kendrick Lamar：
I was never high I was never drunk never out my mind
我从未追求刺激 从未喝到烂醉 从未失去理智
I need control they handed me some smoke but still I declined
我需要控制自己 他们把烟递到我面前 但我还是毅然拒绝
I did it sober sittin' with myself I went through all emotions
我独自一人 清醒地坐着 我心底百感交集
No dependents except for the one let me bring you closer
孤独无依 除了一个例外 让我跟你细细道来
Intoxicated there's a lustful nature that I failed to mention
我沉迷于我未曾提及的贪欲天性之中
Insecurities that I project sleepin' with other women
我想象着自己缺乏安全感的样子 与别的女人同床共眠
Whitney's hurt the pure soul I know I found her in the kitchen
Whitney伤心不已 她是我认识的最纯洁的人 我发现她在厨房里
Askin' God "Where did I lose myself
开口询问上帝 我究竟在哪里迷失了自我
And can it be forgiven"
我能否得到宽恕
Broke me down she looked me in my eyes "Is there an addiction"
将我击垮 她注视着我的眼睛 好像在说 你是否欲罢不能
I said "No" but this time I lied I knew that I can't fix it
我矢口否认 但这次我却说谎了 我知道我无法弥补过错
Pure soul even in her pain know she cared for me
她纯洁无瑕 即使她痛苦不堪也时刻关心着我
Gave me a number said she recommended some therapy
她给我一个电话号码 说她推荐了一些心理治疗活动
I asked my momma why she didn't believe me when I told her "No"
我问过我的妈妈 当我告诉她没有时 她为什么不愿相信我
I never knew she was violated in Chicago I'm sympathetic
我不知道她在芝加哥的时候受到侵犯 我同情她的遭遇
Told me that she feared it happened to me for my protection
她告诉我 她很担心我会遭遇同样的事 这只为保护我的安全
Though it never happened she wouldn't agree
尽管从未发生过这种事 但她总是放心不下
Now I'm affected twenty years later trauma has resurfaced
现在我受到影响 二十年后创伤再度浮现
Amplified as I write this song I shiver 'cause I'm nervous
当我写下这首歌时 这种感觉愈演愈烈 我紧张不安 导致我瑟瑟发抖
I was five questioning myself 'lone for many years
那时我才五岁而已 多年来我总是独自质疑自己
Nothing's wrong just results on how them questions made me feel
一切都没有改变 这只是他们的提问引发我深思的后果
I made it home seven years on tour chasin' manhood
我回归家庭 七年以来我忙着巡演 追寻我的男人本色
But Whitney's gone by time you hear this song she did all she could
等你听到这首歌时 Whitney已经离开 她已竭尽所能
All these women gave me super powers what I thought I lacked
这些女性给予超能力 正好就是我觉得自己缺失的能力
I pray our children don't inherit me and feelings
我祈祷我们的孩子不会继承我的特质以及我的感情
I attract a conversation not bein' addressed in black families
在黑人家庭中 鲜少有人畅谈这一话题
The devastation hauntin' generations and humanity
这种伤害笼罩着子孙后代 挑战着我们的人性
They raped our mothers then they raped our sisters
他们肆意侵犯我们的母亲 然后再侵犯我们的姐妹
Then they made us watch then made us rape each other
让我们亲眼目睹 然后逼迫我们互相伤害
Psychotic torture between our lives we ain't recovered
让我们一生都忍受着精神折磨 我们无法痊愈
Still livin' as victims in the public eyes who pledge allegiance
在公众的眼中 依然无法摆脱受害者的身份
Every other brother has been compromised
两个兄弟中有一个人已经选择妥协
I know the secrets every other rapper sexually abused
我对秘密了如指掌 两个说唱歌手中就有一个遭受过非人的欺辱
I see 'em daily buryin' they pain in chains and tattoos
我每天都看着他们将痛苦埋葬于项链与纹身之中
So listen close before you start to pass judgement on how we move
所以在你对我们的所做所为指指点点以前 你得听仔细了
Learn how we cope whenever his uncle had to walk him from school
学习我们的应对方法 让叔叔亲自去接他放学
His anger grows deep in misogyny
他怒火中烧 深陷于对女性的厌恶中
This is post-traumatic black families and a sodomy today is still active
这就是经历过创伤后的黑人家庭 那种事情仍时有发生
So I set free myself from all the guilt that I thought I made
所以我让自己重获自由 摆脱那些我我以为自己犯下的罪行
So I set free my mother all the hurt that she titled shame
所以我让我的妈妈重获自由 摆脱她称之为耻辱的痛苦
So I set free my cousin chaotic for my mothers pain
所以我让我的表哥重获自由 他因为我妈妈的痛苦而混乱不堪
I hope Hykeem made you proud 'cause you ain't die in vain
我希望Hykeem能让你倍感骄傲 因为你的死亡并非徒劳无益
So I set free the power of Whitney may she heal us all
所以我释放了Whitney的力量 愿她能治愈我们所有人
So I set free our children may good karma keep them with God
所以我让我们的孩子重获自由 愿善缘让他们与上帝同在
So I set free the hearts filled with hatred keep our bodies sacred
所以我让充斥着仇恨的心重获自由 让我们身躯保持圣洁
As I set free all you abusers this is transformation
当我放过你们这群施虐者 这就是涅槃重生
Beth Gibbons：
I wish I was somebody
多么希望我可以变成别人
Anybody but myself
只要不是我自己就好
Ooh I wish I was somebody
多么希望我可以变成别人
Anybody but myself
只要不是我自己就好
You did it I'm proud of you
你做到了 我为你感到骄傲
You broke a generational curse
你打破了世代延续的诅咒
Say "Thank you dad"
大声说 爸爸 谢谢你
Thank you daddy thank you mommy thank you brother
爸爸 谢谢你 妈妈 谢谢你 兄弟 谢谢你
Mr. Morale
Morale先生
Before I go in fast asleep love me for me
在我沉沉入睡以前 请爱我真实的模样
I bare my soul and now we're free
我袒露灵魂 现在我们自由自在
